My Life As A Girl

We are all born the same way.
It was not tell I was one did my parents not know that I was different and special.
I am just slower then most.
I was in Special Ed most of my school years.
But what happens when kids make fun of you.
I did not know how to defend myself.
I guess my parents did not know how to teach me.
I wish I knew then what I know now.

As a kid I would often feel alone because I would see kids that were 'normal' and say "I want to be like them".
I would come home from school every day and ask "Why did God make me this way"?
God made those like me to show you that we all are all the same but different.

When kids would tease me; I did not want to show them I hurt. I would go into the bathroom and cry.
You would think something so harmless can't have an effect on someone.
For me it has; I am scared to do some things now that I wish I could do.
You mite ask what?
I can't tell guy's my true feelings because I'm to scared.

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How can I ever fall in love if I can't forget my past?
Kids making fun of me made me hide my feelings.
When I like a guy I can't do anything because I don't know how to tell him my feelings.

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I would like to find love someday. Having a crush on a guy is a pain. I have only known him for a year or so in the Special Olympics. My feeling from the past will not let me go on with my life. It if hard for me to tell him my feelings. I just hate being this way. I have learned to hlde my feeling from kids making fun of me. All I know is how to run away from my problems.